A little story of pics... Since you say i never really talk about me, i'll try through some pics to share stuff...

I'll start here, where im a baby...

So, i was born at 7:11AM and weighed 7,11 and those 2 numbers have always stuck with me as my lucky numbers...
Not long after i was born we found i had some allergies... Penicillin, not a good thing to be allergic to! And Baby milk, which ruined a lot of my teeth... those were the main ones. I was born not long after my mum was 19 and my dad was 22, and at that time they seemed to get along, but werent married and never planned to be... I wasnt even planned, mum worked in a hotel and dad worked in Quick Fit.

A bit older... and i got a brother...

And a trip to Florida! By this point i could use a computer without issue but still had a bottle!
I think this was our first time in Florida, here i was well happy cause there was loads of rodger rabbit stuff, and that was my fave film! (Seemed to think id grow up and look like Jessica Rabbit...)

I also still loved the flinstones! Tried getting over that fence to get in!


A bit older here, And in florida again, with that horrible short hair! Looked so much like a boy :(

This was at my fave theme park, and still is! This wasnt the happiest of days tho, i was devasted about that outfit Andy has on... id spotted the dress that matched it and really wanted it, but dad didnt like it so i got told no and he bought Andy that instead...
But look! I was really skinny once!

By this point Andy was more dads favourite... and i didnt like it! Andy was always more of a mummys boy, and i liked doing boy stuff with dad and going out in the car, but i think dad was scared of Andy ending up gay or something so gave him more attention...

Still look like a boy! And eugh what a gap in my teeth!

Hair is getting longer! And i have a dress on! Unknown in these days!!

Here is, Me, Andy, my best friend at the time Nicole and her little sister... This was the day before we were all going down to Blackpool, which was a horrible day as she whined and had to stop the car so many times on the way down because she turned out to be quite ill when confronted by my dads driving!

This is near the end of my mum and dad being together, this was at my dads mates wedding reception...

I have no idea how my mum could be smiling here, the day before she had an operation to try to burn away the cancer. Luckily it worked for that one, but at the time we didnt know. And also at the time my dad was away shagging his mates new wifes best mate... who now lives across the road with the barky road and screaming kids...


This was our first family holiday since my mum and dad seperated and while the divorce was going through... and Rachel came too, who i didnt really like but had to get on with it. Although i always knew my dad never had too much of a liking toward her either. She was too cheap for him!

We were going to a pirate show this night, so we were all getting dressed up for the fancy meal and such, but there was an argument over what she chose to wear and drinking and stuff... was a long night that id rather have missed out on!


My 10th Birthday party! Held in the downstairs section of the big McD's in Princes St!

Thats my little cousin Dean grabbing my hand... was a bit excited when dancing was mentioned! Behind me is Norry, i didnt really know him at the time... but noone else from my new school class at the time so i eneded up friends with him after that, he is a great cartoonist, but very strange! At this time i was being made to choose weather i wanted to live with my mum or with my dad... not something i wanted to do!


Here i had forced them into sharing and i started living part time with dad and rachel in Queensferry and part time with mum in Edinburgh, Andi too. We went to Echline Primary next to my dads house though.

I still didnt have that many friends by this point, didnt like being the oldest in the class, people in the class didnt like it either. So i was still pretty lonely. Didnt have a single friend at my mums place... never did in the end.

And in 2001, we get Chrissy!

So now in the tiniest 1 bedroom flat in one of the roughest areas of Edinburgh we have 4 of us trying to live. Wasnt easy and was the first cause of my mum to get ill, and what started both of us to hide ourselves in our online lives.

When me and dad got used to the way things were we got a lot closer again and just had an understanding about the way things worked. Never spoke about it for a lot of years, but we were best friends again.

This was the day we went to Silverstone. He wanted to drive me round in the Dodge or the Ferrari he was driving but they wouldnt allow it so he payed for me to be taken round for a few laps with a race driver that was there that day in his rally car, that was great fun! After we had finished there we drove up to blackpool for 1 ride on the big one then went home, quite a good few days out!

The next thing i got into with my dad was the bikes..

Not much to say about that but it was a lot of fun.

As i got older i got a lot 'rounder'

Near enough every photo that im standing up in from here on im standing like this to try take the emphasis off of how big i was getting... Noone mentioned it for a while to me, but i then found out my parents were arguing about it and eventually i found out and it all got redirected at me.

Recognise this place?

Started getting even bigger, my arms and face started to fill out a lot more, but at that age didnt know what to do about it.

I started on Tae Kwan Do to try get healthy..

Never really got any support in doing it though, so i think i struggled to stick at it because of that, so i switched to doing Karate with Andy and got a lot more interest from mum and dad and actually was allowed to go to more classes and competitions.


part 2 coming soon

Soooo Part 2

This is the first ever pic of me to go online...


That was my MSN display pic for a while when i started doing nothing but sitting online since i had no friends at my mums place. Originally i only spoke with my aussie friend Justin who was my age and my canadian friend Frankie who was a little bit older. Didnt make all that many friends to begin with, but the online world was a lot more appealing than real life where i had no friends and my parents were getting divorced and there were fights and people coming and going.

In 2004 i started to talk a lot more online, especially in that summer, and met my best friend Scott. we didnt speak tonnes but quite a lot, by this point Justin and Frankie were gone and it was a whole new crowd.
This was taken in 2005... another horrific haircut!

From august 2004 me and scott consitantly text while i was at my dads to be at school and while i was at my mums i wouldnt even sleep cause we would just be online every second we could be. But then i never got told off for it cause my mum was doing it too. Only difference was is she couldnt be just one person anymore, and each day i had to figure out if i had my mum or Cookiezz/Laurie. She to this day doesnt realise that though. But i was quite happy to sit and talk to Scott all the time. Even though we got a lot of comments about it from people we both knew online, because i was only 13 and he was 15 there were a few nasty things said, but it was never what they thought. We would just talk about the most random things, like talking in animal noises for an hour would be a totally normal thing to do! Or sit and draw stuff and show it and discuss the randomness that we had drawn.

When i started high school i was a bit lost, didnt have many friends, still wanted to stay online all the time, but did eventually get some friends, mostly not from any of my classes though, and more people my age...

This is me and Becca randomly walking across the bridge, there was not much to do in South QueensFerry so we did a lot of walking!

I had a lot of fights in HS... quite a few with some of my friends..

This is me and mel, we would always fight because she didnt like the way i did things, or how 'loud' i was or whatever, we always made it up in the end though.

This is me and Andrew, he was a good friend for a long time through school...

untill he asked me out and i laughed at him :/ id honestly thought he was joking... apparently not.. he never spoke to me again after that. Ooops! (We all assumed he was gay though... just noone said anything)

Through HS i had kirsty to help with anything that needed a smart person! Id have failed physics without her next to me!

We always got on well but never really liked the way each other did things ... the only thing we ever agreed on was skating! I taught her to skate then she got pretty good and went on to compete... while i got injured and stopped doing it.

Continued...

Murrayfield

When i was little my dad always took me to the rink, and learning to skate on my own was a huge thing for me. I never took lessons, i had to do it by myself. When i got to highschool i decided to switch from hockey boots which were just for fun skating to figure skates, which my dad bought me from ebay on the promise that i was going to try and lose some weight. It was a difficult change and i got hurt a lot but once i got the hang of it i started on the skating course. Got my first 9 levels easily in not very long and then went onto private classes which was great. Until i got hurt... i already had quite a list of injuries (Ribs, bashed head, fractured arm...) then the dizziness stopped me completely. One day in training i was just going round the ice working on speed and corners and blanked out, smashed my head quite badly off the ice but got up and kept going, i dont remember any of the falling or getting back up, someone just came and stopped me cause i had blood going down my face :/ suppose i was a bit too focused....

We had a lot of fun at the rink

i tried to get as many people as possible interested in it... only 2 of them really did it though

Find a hat!

This was one of mine and Scotts games... each week we had to go out and find a kind of hat and have our picture taken wearing it. didnt last too long but was quite fun while it lasted, and led to both of us having quite a collection of hats!

So im 15 here, and Abbie had just been born... was a really strange time

I did a lot for abbie, i got up at silly times to feed her, change her or whatever and looked after her a lot... miss her still though.

Baby was a lot of fun after she grew up a little...

Loved taking her to the park and just messing about, always worried about her falling or anything though so was always a bit uneasy about it!

Randomness... i dont remember who took the picture...

This was at my dads on my trampoline... i dont remember this day or who took the pic, but it must have been a good day! I usually remember a lot about pics though, and what was going on, but nothing on this one :/

More randomness

I did try the 'Arty' thing at school but couldnt stick to it, i was so much better at the technical drawings than anything else, so i stuck to that, then immediatley regretted it when i realised for what i wanted to do i needed art as well!

Scary!

Before the whole strange and spikey thing i got quitre scary!

So, as i got older i seemed to get a bit strange, but made a few friends through it, we liked to be a bit different...

This is when i started with the spikey hair and being a bit less me... But its also just before i started going out and partying a lot... and i was only 15/16 here... Im with my bestest friend of the time, Nicole, we spent a lot more of school laughing than learning anything at all, she was in my English and French class and we always sat together but the teachers never dared separate us!

Living on a building site! Wasnt easy!

Drove me mad most of the time having such an unfinished house... i never even stayed long enough to see it get finished! Does look nice now though!
Eugh, what a belly i had then!

Bye bye

This was the last pic i took of me and abbie just before i left my dads, i kinda knew in the back of my head i wouldnt be there for much longer... didnt expect it to happen like it did though.

So, we found 'Unders' .... What an enlightenment that was!

I cant believe i went out dressed like that when i was 16!!! And to the Hive too! Moulan rouge night at Hive for the Under 18's was interesting... i got to see just how clubs worked... and a few other things too! A whole lot more than dancing went on in there! It turned out to be a lot worse than the proper clubs though! After a few times to this we all started getting a bit drunk before going in, and that made it seem a whole lot better! Then they started breathalizing us all... that didnt go down too well...


Binkage!!!

Binkage was our game in school... lasted a wee bit longer than that too though. Did end up one night where we went out and they though it a good idea to write 'Bondage' On me though... got a lot of strange interest that night! *shudders*
Eeeek look at that phone! Haha!

A lot of pics from those days i dont have a clue what was going on! But it was fun anyways... i think!

Last day i fully attended school...

And i had to be the one not grouped in with anyone! And i hadnt even thought about leaving by this point! Even the 'unpopular' kids are in a group and smiling!

Eventually i left school and we stopped going to the Hive, but instead had house parties!

At this point i was still the me who was in HS... and the small gap id had in seeing them all my friends had calmed down... they suddenly got a lot older! Even though i was a year up on all of them! Its probably what caused all the falling out...

This was from the same night... not much to say just wanted to make you smile xD



So after a year of sitting about doing nout i finally went to college...

Didnt make any real friends in the first year, but we did have a lot of random fun, especially helping out the photography peeps... which is what i wanted to move onto... Glad i didnt though!

out of order by a long shot...

P7 Prom... never wanted to go, never planned to go, untill i was forced into it... for absolutely no reason :S so i had nout to wear and noone to go with (as in just general mates...)

i'll add more at some point... starting to get all jumbled up